Wednesday, November 17, 2010

vacation, mortality and marraige

We're gearing up for a trip to Florida for a Disney cruise. We're getting there a day early so we might go to Disney World too. The kids are over-the-top excited. I always get nervous before going on a big trip. We've never been on a cruise before and this is definatly the biggest trip we've ever done. I have a binder with all our documents (birth certificates, travel plans, etc.) ready to go.
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Think about this. Life is a little bit like a facebook post or a tweet. It's just here and now then it's gone. I was cleaning out my basement the other day and going through pictures, letters and journal entries from college, highschool and before. Interlochen, where I went to h.s., was only 15 years ago but it seems like a whole other lifetime ago. If we are eternal creatures, 15 years is only a few minutes in the big picture. Our whole lifetime is only a few hours. I don't think about the past too much and I forget most of the details. Memories are like looking through the window of a fast-moving train that I catch glimpses of every now and then. So in a way this life is pretty abstract, because our memories only retain a very small part. The only thing that's really real is what's happening right now. I can't imagine how it works, but I'm pretty sure God is not bound by the dimension of time. I think the concept of time and that for us it is only going forward is unique to mortals.
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My friend Karin recently divorced her husband. It's been about 4 months. She was numb at first but now she really regrets it and it's too late, she says. She felt suffocated because he was always away on business and when he was home, he wasn't emotionally there. She felt like the only reason she existed was to serve everyone else's needs but she couldn't have any needs. So she had a break-down and said she wanted a divorce. Both wanted the other to put the breaks on the process but niether partner would. So they went through the motions of filing for a divorce and now she is realizing it maybe was a big mistake. They have 3 young boys. This is sad. But I think not uncommon. I think I am very lucky to have Taylor. Our marraige may not be perfect but he is good to me and a good father and I can honestly say through our ups and downs that we are still in love and we'll make it through whatever life throws our way. Together.

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